Contempuous Color

When we came out of hiding, the lights were louder than I remembered. Eyes buzzing, lids flickering, trying to shield my conscious from the reality of this. Slow moving and dazed in a daydream, the colors began to call to me; surrounding me, they begged me to open my eyes. The screaming reds and yellows hold me in contempt before    

                                                                                                                                                                         it all fades to black.

Without Reply

Silent songs of praise &

I am still. Body begging for more,

Aching from the mixed messages

The crossed lines telling me to keep straight

When we’ve reached a fork in the road.

A mesmerizing melody,

Building me up, each time,

Into something I’m not.

But     

I’ll let the feeling take over

When I’ve lost all meaning.

Might as well enjoy this ride while,

I’m still senseless and young;

All the while knowing how it all ends.

And did you know

And did you know that?

My blood, it boiled at

The the situated state I’ve put myself in,

The detrimental consequence of monomania.

And did you catch that look?

My eyes sharp, like razorblades as

The scissors cut through the photographs,

The only relic of remembrance.

And did you see right through?

My veil, it covered

The laughing madness that lay underneath,

The medicated mental state that is me.